All my life I've been associated with the label.."goody two shoes" or "goody goody".
For many years it seemed to come to me in a negative fashion as though there was something wrong with wanting to be a good girl. It hurt my feelings. I was teased and at times ostracized for it because it would seem that I was "no fun" because of it. It took its toll on my self-esteem and I ended up disliking myself because of it.
As I got older, there would still be occasional comments, or being left out of certain activities, but it didn't bother me like it did when I was younger.
I took an internal inventory of my heart to ask it, what are the things I like? What brings me joy? What do I want to spend my time talking about with others or filling my mind and soul with?
I realized I was the happiest when I was a child and loved the light-hearted innocent things. When I would seemingly try to compromise myself and engage in the talk that didn't seem as wholesome or place myself in an atmosphere that was less than pure, I wasn't happy. It wasn't fun to me. I realized I didn't want to be around it, so why try to be accepted in the atmosphere I didn't want to be in? I wasn't upset with the people, we were just different. I like being in an atmosphere that is uplifting and encouraging and filled with light and love and caring for others. I love being around beauty of all sorts.
The more I have learned about God and His word, the more I see that this is what He teaches me to be. He promises it will bring me joy. It certainly does. :) It might not match up much with today's society, but I don't care much for the way society has evolved anyway, so I am fine with being different in this aspect.
I like being a goody two shoes. It makes me happy. :D And I'm fine with those who might not want to be around me because of it. I have no intention to criticize anyone who feels differently than me but I'm also not going to apologize for being the way I am even if others think I might be judging them. I'm not. This is a blog of self-acceptance, not a critique of other's behaviors.
I really like who God has made me on the inside. :) Thanks God! ♥
